Made my shrink appointment on Thursday. It’s roughly a three block walk from the metro to the front door of his office. Took my time; it was 10 minutes before I made it. Took almost 10 minutes to catch my breath after walking. And I slept for 13 hours, proving that that tiny little excursion was almost too much for me.
Somehow, I don’t think I’ll make it to Wednesday’s band rehearsal. Can’t imagine I’ll have enough strength to make it through the entire night. Not when doing a couple of small things tires me to the point of mega sleep.
So, the ghosts are active again. Keep hearing stuff that sounds like there’s someone else in the flat. T is out right now and the noise I heard earlier made me call out ‘hello’ because it really did sound like a living person in here. Happens a lot in the evening, too. Strange noises from the kitchen area or down the hallway. Loud, distinct noises. And I’ve got bruising, too. On my arms, looking like someone was holding me back during the night. Strange bruise on my hand, too. It shows up, then seems to disappear, then comes back worse than ever.
My system is still having problems, too. If I don’t even out by Monday, I’ll see someone. This is week 4 and I’m eating regularly. I shouldn’t be having issues on the toilet, but I am. Jeez! I am SO sick and tired of being sick and tired! T is being my cheerleader, telling me he sees tiny improvements and I AM getting better. It’s tough. Real tough. Very glad he’s here with me. He’s a huge help to me.
T even picked up a new hoover. Woohoo! He tidied up before his student came this week and DAMN! The new hoover works really, really well. Cannot believe how clean everything was. Especially the rugs. They were getting quite tatty looking ’cause the old hoover wasn’t strong enough to pick up dirt from them. Now we’ve clean rugs again.
It’s supposed to get warmer over the next few days. Hoping I’ll make it out for some short excursions around the block. Just get moving a bit. Try to start building up strength again. Not looking forward to it.
But I’ll keep going.