Zero follow through. More than any other, it’s the reason I’d make a lousy parent. I get angry, I set restrictions, but then I don’t follow through. I want open communication and companionship more than any desire I have to ‘be right’ or ‘make a point’.
I was reticent, saying little. My bro picked up on it right away. Surprise, surprise. Realized that I was angry over something that happened a few days ago, and my bro is very akin to a dog: you’ve got to bring him up sharp immediately or he won’t remember what he’s being scolded for. So I let it go. I talked with him, helped with dinner and dishes.
After writing yesterday, I also realized that I’d written out my own solution. He was circling some anxiety and not letting it go. Best thing to do: listen. Didn’t ever hear him come out with a biggie that I thought all his frustration was pinned on, but he seemed much lighter once I let go of my petulance and just spent time with him.
And…he ran down to the store for a few supplies and bought some after dinner treats because ‘he sensed maybe I needed them’. That pretty much brought down whatever remained of my anger: just that extra bit of thought and kindness.
Have coughed my voice into a lower register. I really sound like a guy now. My normal voice is alto, so it’s rather deep for a woman’s to begin with. Now, tho! Yikes. Even to my ears I sound like a tenor/baritone.
Took my homework to bed and finished it off. Not a big deal, tho I note here I had to look up several words to make sure I was doing it correctly. It wasn’t an automatic run through the list.
Slept in ’til 10 this morning. That’s late for me.
Got the dates on the theatre meeting mixed up; it’s Thursday, not tonight. Good. That takes pressure off me today. May even stay for the full class.
Warnings out for high winds today. Guess the storms that have battered the east are headed this way. Rain, too. And cold. I don’t really want to go out in it.
Managed to put in some time on the audio scripts. Went out, saved my work in text form so I can always go back to the stage play versions, and began writing. Cut out stage directions and replaced them with audio cues. Got thru four scenes, then shut down. Trying to do it sans narrator.
Gave thought, too, to other short podcasts I can do. The trilogy is big, and not everyone will want to give a 30 minute story a try. So I’m thinking of lots of small bits; short stories built on things I haven’t quite found a home for. Patterning things after the YouTube channels I find interesting. No first person stories, and a certain pat intro that leads the audience straight into it.
Lots to do, and zero guarantees it’ll return anything. That’s life, I guess.
Well… It’s the beginning of the new year. Starting with zeroes on so many of my counters can’t be a horrible thing. After all, new things can only grow if there is room for them. Seems I have plenty of room in my life for new things right now.
I’m zeroed out.